Learning to Cope

Coping with break-ups is not easy. Tonight will most likely be another night of tears, as has been the last 17 nights. But tonights tears will be a little different than the previous ones. Previously I was crying either out of lonliness, missing him, jealousy, anger, the unknown, or because I was feeling like I lost not only my boyfriend but also about five friends who seem to have thought of me more as just Matt’s girlfriend. Maybe they’re just not used to this sort of thing and don’t know how to react.

But enough of that, the reason tonights tears will be different is because I have absolutely no idea what I am crying about. I mean, yes I miss him and yes I’m lonely but that’s not really something I’ve been crying about lately….although I’m sure I’m not done crying about that yet. And I’m not angry at him or jealous any more…simply because I was able to finally see him. And I’m not about to cry because a bunch of weird guys don’t seem care about me anymore.

No, tonight my tears are different. And I cannot seem to lay a finger on what the emotion is that is welling up inside. It is indefinable. It might be hope for the future or joy for the present or tears of love for my Savior who has been by my side every minute of these last 18 days. They are hopeful tears because I trust God and I know He will work all things for good for those who love God. Although I still sin and screw up constantly, I know I am walking His path and He is laying it before me step by step. I just need to follow and trust in Him. If only I can learn to trust in Him and wait quietly while He does His work.

Eat Bitter

I was reading a Boundless article that commented on how American’s are always complaining about how things are not going right for them. The noble American ideas “to fight back, to stand up for our rights, [and] to make a difference” have lead us to try to change what we don’t like, to stand up for our perceived rights by complaining, and to defend ourselves and our convenience. We have not learned to Eat Bitter, so to speak.

Instead of complaining and trying to change whatever it is that is bothering us, the article points out that we need to “learn to wait quietly, to wait on the Lord to defend or to provide for me.” To eat bitter does not mean we must just hold our complaints, it means we are to trust that God is in control and He has a plan for our lives and that even through the hardships, He is working all things for good and we should have joy in that rather than complaining or agitating for change.

If only I could learn to wait quietly, and to trust that God knows what He is doing.

Rock Climbing

I desperately need a rock climbing buddy…life is getting boring at home with nothing to do and no one to hang with…i could use some good rock climbing therapy to get me going again.

Hangar 18 just opened up in Riverside and I’m anxious to get over there before the Grand Opening pricing deals are over on the 18th. Anyone want to join me? Rock Climbing is nearly impossible with just one person.

His Grace is Enough

I have been going through a bit of a trial lately but day by day God is healing me from the pain. He has begun to show me that good can and will come from this and that even if it didn’t, He still deserves praise. His grace which He has shown me by dying on the cross and offering up salvation to me, is enough. I deserve nothing.

Praise the Lord!

Praise the LORD!

Praise the LORD from the heavens;

Praise Him in the heights!

Praise Him, all His angels;

Praise Him, all His hosts!

Praise Him, sun and moon;

Praise Him, all stars of light!

Praise Him, highest heavens,

And the waters that are above the heavens!

Let them praise the name of the LORD,

For He commanded and they were created.

He has also established them forever and ever;

He has made a decree which will not pass away.

Praise the LORD from the earth,

Sea monsters and all deeps;

Fire and hail, snow and clouds;

Stormy wind, fulfilling His word;

Mountains and all hills;

Fruit trees and all cedars;

Beasts and all cattle;

Creeping things and winged fowl;

Kings of the earth and all peoples;

Princes and all judges of the earth;

Both young men and virgins;

Old men and children.

Let them praise the name of the LORD,

For His name alone is exalted;

His glory is above earth and heaven.

And He has lifted up a horn for His people,

Praise for all His godly ones;

{Even} for the sons of Israel, a people near to Him.

Praise the LORD!

Praise the LORD!

Sing to the LORD a new song,

{And} His praise in the congregation of the godly ones.

Let Israel be glad in his Maker;

Let the sons of Zion rejoice in their King.

Let them praise His name with dancing;

Let them sing praises to Him with timbrel and lyre.

For the LORD takes pleasure in His people;

He will beautify the afflicted ones with salvation.

Let the godly ones exult in glory;

Let them sing for joy on their beds.

{Let} the high praises of God {be} in their mouth,

And a two-edged sword in their hand,

To execute vengeance on the nations

And punishment on the peoples,

To bind their kings with chains

And their nobles with fetters of iron,

To execute on them the judgment written;

This is an honor for all His godly ones.

Praise the LORD!

Praise Him with timbrel

Praise the LORD!

Praise God in His sanctuary;

Praise Him in His mighty expanse.

Praise Him for His mighty deeds;

Praise Him according to His excellent greatness.

Praise Him with trumpet sound;

Praise Him with harp and lyre and dancing;

Praise Him with stringed instruments and pipe.

Praise Him with loud cymbals;

Praise Him with resounding cymbals.

Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.

Praise the LORD!

–Psalm 148-150

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